2006. Poetic and Philosophical Biography

Although I frequently perform on our global theatre, the stages of life, and sometimes infront of camera, I am NOT an actor. I am much more a musician, communicating in melodies, but a scientifiically-centered altruist is the best definition. I am certainly not a student, but rather a life apprentice of interconnected gurus — Nature and the Geist of my work, relationships, friends, and family.What did I do?
I used to be a patient. I used to be a patient who impersonated and blindly rebelled. I used to be a depleted patient infected by the fictitious demons of Fear and Rage. Fear and Rage manifested themselves as the illusions of, respectively, Depression and Doubt and Resentment and Rancor.

Subsequent to a reflection of the possession, I witnessed how Fear had concealed colors from my existence, tricking me into nebulous tranquility, neglected my unbridled enthusiasm, subduing my vehemence, and blinded me to my true potentiality. Nominalization, as the distortion of a deep structure process into an event, was not clear to me. Furthermore, Rage then degenerated my quality, admonished my romantic awareness, crippled my capacity to experience profound joy and jubilation, and transformed my debonnair savor faire into a vile and smoldering ferocity.Then I evolved…I used to be a brainwashed impersonator who dabbled in the false sorcery of materialism, concerned about the prison of control. Running from Fear, I daily observed my fellow ape, looking at black-and-white characters on a page. I did not know how to read my friends without running from Fear.

Fear has to do with obfuscated belief – too much of it – producing anxiety. Our malady was thinking we were a biological machine that had learned to think, when, in reality, we are cognitive spirits that have constructed a body. As an attempt to ameliorate my sickness of being frightened by mediocrity, I emulated cookie cutters of successful business leaders, well-known politicians, high-performance athletes, and eminent actors, mutating me into a celebrity conglomerate, to conceal my vulnerability and Fear.After Fear, I wanted a new friend and met Rage, I evolved…I was a blind rebel who stressed about my perception of the world, preaching about the chimera of freedom. Cycling Rage and hackneyed ideas over and over in my existence, I wrote with resentment, acted from the stimuli of pain.

Rage is about refractory, myopic judgment – too much of it – producing compulsion. After utilizing Fear, I became obstructed by Rage when I, blind, failed to see the meaning of an experience is the experience. My conscience, now embracing anomaly, was ready to change and had already transformed, but my brain, obstinate and opaque, dangerously nominalized praxis into posture, and merely clung to an undistilled Ultimate Reality.Fear and Rage didn’t work for me, so I evolved…

We are still interested in, but selective towards, change because we are committed to evolving ourself through positive self-regard, transparency, and congruency toward others. We understand that changing with change targets and boosts the celebrity conglomerate groundedness (tonal/image/survival/model); while emptiness targets, bolsters and incites the compassionate reservoir (nagual/essence). We change with change while embracing emptiness. We know this:We emerge the compassionate reservoir by bolstering the simulacrum image. This conglomerate image, however, is boosted upon the galvanization of the compassionate reservoir.Being a deprograming psychologist, We are intractably in the state of now. Right now, we understand and have befriended Fear, so we utilize anxiety as excitement to abandon doubt. Therefore we are not timid nor shy, nor meek. However, we also understand Rage so in befriending it we can be passionate without belonging to anger; we take responsibility of it; I am never overly-aggressive, belligerent nor hostile to any being. Because we aim to sustain my cooperation with the powerful energy of our spirit,  We honor the compliments and criticisms we receive as blessings. With this coalescence, we become astonishingly intense, remarkably benign, and authentically connected. We are not resurrected, because we never died, and we have no reluctance nor hesitation, but are extremely calculated in our actions. Because we experience no doubt, we listen before we judge. We keep my fascinating curiosity, you see, but channel it with the belief of invigorating inquisition. Our goal is to perpetuate a state of economically successful compassion, meaning we are efficiently loving, safe, and proliferate jubilant exultation.